Kaoru groaned and sat up with a start, banging his head on the wall next to his bed! He continued hitting his head hardly, shutting his eyes to get the image out of his mind!

No! No! NO! Toshiya get out of my head!! Do you have to haunt me? Why do I keep dreaming of you? Argh!!!!! Nooooooo!

Kaoru stopped banging his head after his head was quite painful, but he would not admit to himself why he had stopped…he dressed and got ready to go into the studio…

"Morning Kaoru-san…" a sickly sweet voice whispered all innocently, an attempt at an imitation of Toshiya’s voice Kaoru shuddered, and turned to see Shinya standing his batting his eyelids and smiling at Kaoru…Kaoru turned pale…and strode off with out a word…

"Ooooh!! Kaoru-san’s grumpy! Toshiya! Toshiya!" Shinya yelled before bursting into peals of laughter…as Kaoru turned back looking for Toshiya…trying to make it not noticeable…

I don’t like Toshiya!!! No! I don’t like Toshiya! I just turned back to see who had arrived, and Shinya sounds nothing like Toshiya when he says good morning…Toshiya says in a truly innocent voice, the kind that makes me want to hug him and protect him from anything! And that sweet smile…my heart melts when I see it…er….no! I mean Shinya does sound exactly like Toshiya! Why would I like that kind of sweet voice! In fact Toshiya sounds even worse…so (angelic) … fake! It’s all just a (beautiful blue) fake image… Kaoru thought to himself, blushing…

"Kaoru! Helloooo? Kaoru? Any one there? Apart from Kaoru and ‘Toshiya-of-the mind’?" Shinya called out smirking as Kaoru turned a deeper shade of red…

"Uhhh….?" He said a little confused… "Look Shin-chan, I do not like Toshiya…ok? What ever made you think that I do? Huh? Tell me!"

"Well…" Shinya drawled rolling his eye as suddenly his voice turned all serious, taking on a lecturer’s tone of voice, "How come you always stare at Toshiya when he plays bass…and we call you for 5 minutes and you never hear until Toshiya goes… ‘Kaoru’ in that flirty voice of his, and then suddenly you turn bright red and return to reality…I mean it’s quite obvious! Duh Kaoru-san!"

"Shin-chan…what are you lecturing ‘Kaoru’ about?" Toshiya suddenly popped his head around the door with a quizzical expression on his face…

"Er…um….nothing Toshiya!" Kaoru said blushing as he flashed Shinya an evil look!

"Well actually Toshi-chan…you wanna know why Kaoru has been so strange lately?" Shinya said winking at the now very uncomfortable guitarist!

"No! Shhhh! Shut up Shinya!" Kaoru yelled…blushing even more…

"Toshiya…Kaoru…has not had enough sex lately…so he can’t concentrate!" Shinya burst into peals of laughter as Kaoru hid his face…Toshiya began to laugh too…grinning at Kaoru…

"Ooooh! Poor little Kaoru-san…" Toshiya whispered brushing his fingers down Kaoru’s cheek…resting them on his cheekbone…not knowing how Kaoru wants him to ….

BANG!

"Huh?" they both turned to see that they were alone now…Shinya had left them! Kaoru tried the door but it would not open…Toshiya tried it…nope it was jammed…sighing Kaoru began to kick the door frame…

"Kaoru-chan…" Toshiya whispered, coming nearer to Kaoru… "If you really are horny…" he slid his hand down Kaoru’s cheek… in the dark Kaoru turned all red and was flustered… "Um…er…Toshiya?"

Toshiya moved over near to Kaoru…wrapping one arm around Kaoru’s slim waist, the other cupping his chin in his hand, Toshiya pushed Kaoru onto the couch so now he was lying down looking up at Toshiya in the dark room, Toshiya bent his head pressing his soft lips against Kaoru’s…

For so long I waited to kiss Toshiya… Kaoru’s eyes shut and his mouth began to part…he moaned…pulling Toshiya closer to him…

Suddenly the door swung open… "Huh?? what are you guys doing?" Yoshiki’s startled voice caused them to fall apart…Kaoru furiously blushing…Yoshiki raised one eyebrow suspiciously staring at them.

Toshiya sweetly smiled, batting his eyelids, "Ooh… Yoshiki-san…Kaoru was choking…I was merely giving him mouth to mouth!"

"I didn’t know mouth to mouth involved tongues?" Yoshiki said smirking…

"Want me to demonstrate?" Toshiya said leaning down, with a broad grin…

"OI? Huh!" Kaoru said, almost pushing Toshiya away…

Yoshiki laughed, "No! It’s ok…I believe you…(not!)"… he moved towards the door, "Shall I leave you two, to finish of the mouth to mouth?"

"Ok!" Toshiya said…brushing his hand down Kaoru’s cheek as Yoshiki left closing the door.

Toshiya leaned down to kiss Kaoru again… "Wha-what?" Kaoru asked genuinely confused… "Maybe…we…need to practise!" he said pushing Toshiya away…

"We are practicing!" Toshiya said grinning…

Kaoru pushed him and sat up, his cheeks bright red, "Come…lets go out…"

Toshiya pouted…but took Kaoru’s hand and walked out…

"Oooooh! How far do you think they got?" Kyo screamed as he saw them holding hands…and noting Kaoru’s red cheeks…Kaoru quickly shook Toshiya’s hand from his own as his cheeks turned even redder! Toshiya kissed Kaoru’s cheek, "Bai Kaoru-chan…" as Kaoru froze under the contact of soft lips against his cheek, as Toshiya went to get his bass.

Kaoru stood a few minutes to allow his heart to stop racing…

Toshiya felt miserable, had he just been rejected by Kaoru? I mean he kissed Kaoru, but Kaoru just pushed him away! Fine! I am not going to talk to him! He angrily thought, as he stared at Kaoru. Apparently I am nothing except a bandmate to Kaoru… as he saw Shinya take Kaoru’s arm leading him away…!

***

(The next Day.)

Kaoru felt like he was walking on a cloud as he arrived that bright crisp summer morning for practice. The world was golden after Toshiya’s gentle, beautiful kiss! He floated in to the studio…ignoring everyone’s smirks…

"Gee… I wonder who’s happy today!" Shinya said grinning as he winked at Kyo and Die…

They all rolled their eyes, at the lovesick Kaoru…who looked around noticing no…Toshiya!

"Where’s Toshiya?" he asked worriedly…

"He’s dying." Kyo said matter of factedly…

"WHAT! Where is he? Take me to him now!" Kaoru screamed, totally panicking…

The three rolled their eyes in disgust, lowering their faces so they wouldn’t have to see Kaoru’s face…Toshiya walked in then… Huh? What the hell is going on? Why is it whenever I walk in strange things are happening? Toshiya sighed looking at each person…

"Huh? I thought you said Toshiya was dying?" Kaoru asked puzzled…

"DUH KAORU!" they yelled in unison as Kaoru sheepishly looked away… "Oh…" he muttered a little embarrassed at his reaction just now!

Toshiya ignored Kaoru and walked over to his bass, checking to see if it was ok…and they began that day’s practice. Kaoru kept finding himself looking at a certain bassist…and the certain bassist only had eyes for a certain guitarist, no matter how hard he tried not to look at him! Is Toshiya looking at me?

Is Kaoru looking at me? Toshiya wondered, his mind wandering off somewhere…

"Oi! Toshiya! Kaoru! What are you two daydreaming about, concentrate!" Die yelled, the snapped their heads up meeting the others eyes as they began to blush…the music stopped awkwardly.

"Fine! You guy’s! Maybe we should leave you two alone here …or something! Come, Shinya and Kyo lets go!" Die said dragging them out the door, "Oh! Behave! Don’t do anything we wouldn’t do…basically that means… not much you can’t do!" he said winking at Kaoru!

The door slams as nervously Kaoru and Toshiya eye each other…both awkwardly holding their instruments… "Errr…" Kaoru said…blushing…as he saw how gorgeous Toshiya looked…

Toshiya looked down feeling so embarrassed Kaoru must know! He looked up meeting Kaoru’s eyes, and noticed the blush growing on Kaoru’s cheeks… hmmm….he looks so cute…why is he blushing? Kaoru never blushes? Well not until recently!

Toshiya placed his bass down…looking shyly at Kaoru…he walked over to Kaoru, sitting down on the couch… "Come sit next to me Kaoru!"

Kaoru gulped as he dumped his guitar, seeing the dangerously tight jeans Toshiya had on…he slowly walked to Toshiya sitting down next to him, but quite far away, he was too terrified to sit any closer! Toshiya moved over, so now that there was only a small gap between him and Kaoru…he waited and waited and waited for the kiss…none came. Kaoru just grew more and more flustered…

I can’t tell him…

Toshiya gave up, he stood meaning to walk away, when suddenly Kaoru grabbed his hand…pulling him back down "Wait! Don’t go Toshiya…" Toshiya turned to face him…Kaoru pushed him down, leaning over Toshiya…he leaned down lower gazing into Toshiya’s eyes…

Kiss me! Toshiya thought… Woah! So manly! So strong!

Toshiya placed his hand in Kaoru’s hair pulling his face down to meet his…they were so nervous…Kaoru was shaking so much they missed, and banged noses…

"Ooops!" Kaoru said sitting up his cheeks turned crimson… "I think we should practice!" he said grinning…

"Fine! Reject me!" Toshiya said, his eyes filling with tears…

"I meant…" Kaoru said leaning towards Toshiya and gently wiping his tears away, "Er…some _other_ kind of practice…!" as he kissed Toshiya on the cheek…

"Oh!" Toshiya mumbled feeling ashamed with himself! "Yeh, lets begin!"

Toshiya pulled Kaoru back down over him again, shutting his eyes he let Kaoru kiss him once, on the lips… "Like that?" Kaoru whispered…stroking Toshiya’s pretty face…

"Mmmmmm…" Toshiya moaned, inviting Kaoru to do more…Kaoru bent down smothering Toshiya’s face in kisses, then kissing him harder…his hands moved down to Toshiya’s shirt lifting it and sliding his hands under, whilst Toshiya’s slid under Kaoru’s pulling it up…exposing Kaoru muscly back…

"Oh! Sorry…!" Yoshiki said, as he left again!

"Ooops…" Toshiya murmured but then pulled Kaoru’s mouth back down to his…

***

"How long are they going to be!" Kyo muttered, pacing up and down… "Die? Shinya?" Kyo turned, Oh no! not them too! As he saw Shinya and Die making out in the corridor, Shinya’s shirt half unbuttoned, as Die passionately kissed the now moaning Shinya… rolling his eyes Kyo went off to find something else to do since the whole world seemed intent on making out in front of him…he turned a corner…and gasped… Yoshiki and Toshi…(guess what they were doing!) Grumpily Kyo marched past them…sighing.

Kyo looked at the ground, suddenly he saw a scorpion, "Woah~ cool!" he muttered as he began to follow it forgetting all the making out couples around him!

***

"Toshiya…where were you last night?" Kyo asked him beaming…as he looked at Kaoru’s face…

"Work it out yourself Kyo!" Toshiya murmured wrapping his arm around Kaoru’s waist…they dreamily gazed into each others eyes…leaning in for another kiss, however one kiss turned into a lot more until the rest of DeG had to forcefully pull them apart… "Hey, we gotta practice today!" Die reproachfully said…grinning at them, "Good sex?" Kaoru started to choke…Toshiya patted him on the back flashing Die a murderous glare…

"Er…can you guys hold on! I seriously need to go to the toilet!" Shinya called out, rushing out of the room…

"Gee…suddenly I feel thirsty!" Die called out…rushing after Shinya!

Kaoru and Toshiya rolled their eyes, but then fell into a tight embrace kissing again…

"Do you guys ever stop?" Yoshiki began to lecture…as he walked in…

The lovers blushed moving apart…as Yoshiki stood eyeing them…

"Ah…you guys just got together? I can tell it was good last night!" he said winking with a big hentai grin…

"*ahem!*" Kaoru coughed blushing as he avoided Toshiya’s eye…

Die and Shinya finally returned from the bathroom…

"I see some people decided to leave the bathroom…finally!"

"Um…ohaiyo Yoshiki-san!" Shinya muttered, suddenly very interested in the floor…

"Yoshiki-san!" Die gasped…looking away…not wanting to meet Yoshiki’s eyes!

"Mmmmm!" Kyo suddenly called out, rising from the ground, his eyes half shut… " What did I miss?" he sleepily called out! Everyone chuckled softly and they began practice for the day~!

***

"Good night!" Kaoru whispered tucking Toshiya into the bed, kissing him on the forehead. He stood just about to leave, when Toshiya pulled him down kissing him…Kaoru fell onto Toshiya…his heart beating faster at the touch of Toshiya’s lips!

Breathlessly he pulled away, not wanting to disturb Toshiya’s beauty sleep…but Toshiya pulled back…and made him strip and climb into bed with him! He snuggled up to Kaoru and promptly fell asleep clutching Kaoru around his neck…Kaoru stroked Toshiya’s head and soon he too happily fell asleep…

"Aishiteru Toshiya!" He whispered as his eyes shut.

His mind filled with images of Toshiya as he slept.

5^th June 2000.

Sakurai Mikiko.